Thursday, September 08, 2005

What Am I Thinking?!


I read in my Red Cross deployment packet that some shelter conditions will be "horrendous". Even the agency is straight up using strong language. No flowery cover job, eluding to some discomfort. Fuck. You have no idea how much I have gone back and forth on this thing in my mind. All the while just doing the next indicated thing to prepare. I talk to one person and I am on the plane. I talk to another and I think it is totally unrealistic for me to believe that I can return and finish my semester. AAAHH.

Some people just can't go. Simple. Then some people are just GOING! No doubt about it. I feel like I'm the only knucklehead who has taken the training and done the necessary footwork with hesitation in my heart.

5 comments:

anne arkham said...

I'm going to check this out at my local Red Cross.

Carrie said...

That kicks ass Anne. Keep me posted.

michael said...

Yeah, I hear you. The hesitation is you asking yourself if you can handle "it". You'll only know the answer if you try.

Carrie said...

Speaking of trying, I called you mister. But you were wage slaving. Any surprise?

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