Monday, May 29, 2006


Blogging Sucks, I Suck, You Suck, Life Sucks. In That Order.

Isn't it going to be a festive post, when we get off on that kind of start? It is I, Miss Shitty Fuckin' Attitude Problem Hag Mouth. I'm fairly certain I've got the joy, joy, joy, joy way deep down in my something, but apparently not anywhere that it's useful. Today is sunny, and still I want a drink or an upper. Must be a sign of depression, or a borderline depressive condition. (Do you think I'm jumping to conclusions?)

I do NOT want to be who I am not, and I am rebelling against myself for making me try. You think I need to be happy, productive, pretty, and nice, don't you? Yes you do. Get real, that is what we all expect of everyone, including ourselves. But plenty of people aren't that, and I'm one of them. So you need to move into acceptance and gratitude. Make peace with who I am, and furthermore be grateful for the opportunity to know me, as is. See how easy that was? Now it's your stupid problem, and no longer weighing on my everlastin', godforsaken soul.

9 comments:

Jen said...

I'm going to detach, darlin. Now it's back in your court. I know what you mean, though. It sucks when people "expect" you to be upbeat and happy. Sometimes I'm NOT the Stepford wife, damnit! Your spiritual plate is full, chica. You are not required to be full of love and joy 24/7.
Love ya.

Carrie said...

Thanks for feedback, even though I didn't give you much to work with. Gawd.

evercurious said...

Hey, I wish that I could be more there for you, but I gotta gat out of town tomorrow and I've been working a lot. I like the fact that you can own up to it a not fake it, even though they say "fake it til you make it." THat shouldn't apply to blogs though. As I like to say, "Fuck it!"

Carrie said...

Thanks grrl. Have fun on the road.

razvan s said...
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Maddy said...

although i in no way support acting happy when you're not, i've found that to smile every once in a while actually makes things better. In a workshop on the science of happiness, I learned that at least 60% of our own happiness is determined by ourselves, and less than 40% is determined by outside factors. I'd argue that it's more than that, though. It's incredibly pretentious and downright rude of me to say "be happy, because you're the one who decides." in the past i've been told that, and i've responded mostly with a "hey fuck you!"
so what i'm going to tell you is to find those little things that can make you happy, whether it's music, a book, or company and take that and give it a focus... in other words, if you distract yourself from the shitty stuff, it gets less shitty once you decide to focus on it.

now, as i'm typically a fairly unhappy person, I don't know how good this advice is. but...it works for me.

Carrie said...

Yes. I know these things. And still, feelings/moods happen. But I do appreciate you caring. (^_^)

razvan s said...

carrie i think ur post about blogging sucks is very very interesting and extremely and unusually funny. i searched for the "blogging sucks" kewyword after i had created my own blog and post and found yours.

Im not mad about the bloggers. And im not "an angry little one" hehe.
Im just stuck on the idea that if people would not have the means to "post" themselves over the internet they would probably be forced to maintain a better social life. And all in all, real life experience beats the crap out of writing memoirs for strangers to read on the web. I know that u write for yourself not for the others, but you must admit thats not entirely true. You write conscious that other people might read it and u make little efforts to be funny and interesting.

Anyway i hope u read my comment.
Oh, im a libra too. Thats a weird coincidence. And i chose my template green too. Weeeeeird, i tell you. :)

Carrie said...

Thanks for clarification and positive feedback. I posted the "you go girl" comment, and then read your blog and thought you were being sarcastic. Anyway, I appreciate you coming back and explaining yourself. It's possible you have a point. But I don't think it's an either/or situation. Some people blog and have a social life. Some people wouldn't have a social life with or with out a blog. Some supplement their social life with their blog. I've made a new friend that I talk to on the phone and will likely get to meet face to face eventually. And because people write political commentary, fiction, celebrity satire, or any number of genre of blogs, it's best they write with the reader in mind. The way I see it, the less paper (=trees) used for these concepts to be published, the better. Blogging by definition is on-line journaling. But the chronicles being kept are not all personal. And even in that case, they can be entirely entertaining.